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I just dont care anymore [Nov. 30th, 2005|11:53 pm]
[mood |sicksick]
[music |Epiphany - Staind]

Im sick of being sick...I've been hardcore ill since last friday and its beginning to effect my mental state...little things are irritating me so easily, I find myself unable to keep up a conversation with someone simply b/c I just don't care to. The sad fact is that applies to most people in my life. Even though Im constantly surrounded by others I feel as though I've retreated into myself.
Bah I hardly eat anything, though Im physically hungry, nothing is appealing to me...today I forced down some soup & a bun because Kell's had bought it for me.

Ugh Im in such a melancholy state lately...this saturday is my 19th yet I dont expressly find myself looking forward to it...
Maybe its the cold..maybe its more. *shrugs* all I know is that as of now Ive lost the will to care about much of anything cept for sleeping...
this is not my cry for attention..for im not sad..nor am I expressly happy..I just kind of am right now...which is in a way worse.

On a strange note Cait Gammage is online..havn't talked to her in a long fucking time...cool
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(no subject) [Nov. 10th, 2005|11:22 pm]
[mood |touchedtouched]

So tonight Sam started talking to me again..it was something I had never expected, she apoligized for all the shit that happened around June...I was blown away...Heres this girl who was absolutly horrid to me just a few months ago and now she's apoligzing.
I accepted the apoligy...I hate holding grudges, its so often pointless. She seemed pretty sincere about it...some might disagree with my decision based on the past.

It was a moment of being reminded to have faith in people..
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Obsession [Oct. 25th, 2005|08:32 pm]
[mood |excitedexcited]
[music |try - Nelly Fertado]

So how to tell when your obsessed: Mudvayne is starting a new tour soon..the Masters of Horror tour for Saw 2...so far I can't find any Canadian dates, though I've been searching non-stop. Tonight I realised they're playing in Niagra Falls on the American side just a few days before my birthday...so now Im determined to go...*eee*...it will be my 5th time seeing them, haha 3 of which have been this year alone...

mmm yay

Im pleased
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Moved In ^_^ [Jul. 9th, 2005|08:55 pm]
[mood |accomplishedaccomplished]
[music |unframed - Ill nino]

So Im officially living at hannah's plave now...sweet deal!!! Right now im chillin with Jeffery listening to Ill Nino expecting han and the obys back any moment...*sigh* sometimes its nice just to chill and listen to metal...
Today we did our first gorcery shopping trip...HOLY FUCK! STRESS! I have so much more respect for mothers with like 3 little kids...i went with han, jon and dave..and that was rough...but its done and we have SO much food...Cathy will be so proud

CATHY (aka my sexy german) IS HOME ON TUESDAY!!!!!!!! <3 <3

Yah thats all for now...My play piercing pics are on BME under "play piercing" haha...look for me ; D

Later Days
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Nearly Through... [Jun. 20th, 2005|10:40 am]
[mood |amusedamused]
[music |As heaven is wide- Garbage]

So Im nearly done school for another year, done classes now..w00t ^_^. Technically tommorow and the rest of today theres class but w/e im busy out and about today, and tommorow I have doc's and Jon's place. This week should be pretty good..tues-thurs @ Jon's, one exam then pride..then another exam and im done school!! I still have one semester to go for next year but w/e thats no big...at least its only one heh.

I have very little news other then that as of late

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(no subject) [Jun. 19th, 2005|06:53 pm]
The study of feminism is an intricate process which has become a large focus of historians of all types over the past two centuries. Historian Hsinchao Wu who wrote Whose State? The Discourse of Nation-State in European Feminist Perspectives in the Late Ninetieth and Early Twentieth Centuries, observes the feminist movements around the world, how they differ in contrast to how they’re alike. Wu’s perspective on Feminism appears to be that of a Marxist view in that women have had a long history of oppression and struggle living in primarily male dominant societies. Mary Beth Norton, author of Perspectives on Twentieth-Century Women’s International Activism: Peace, Feminism, and Foreign Policy, reviews women’s roles in war and peace, mainly focusing on the changing ideals within America. Norton, like Hsinchao Wu, appears to have a Marxist view on this topic in that she makes constant reference to America being a plutocracy rather then a democracy. Finally a combination between Lee Ann Banaszak and Erik Plutzer in writing The Social Bases of Feminism in the European Community shed light upon the feminist revolution that occurred in Europe which is often over-looked. >>>>Thesis Here<<<<

Historian Hsinchao Wu who wrote Whose State? The Discourse of Nation-State in European Feminist Perspectives in the Late Ninetieth and Early Twentieth Centuries, observes the feminist movements around the world, how they differ in contrast to how they’re alike. Wu begins with the argument that international and national feminism can co-exist but not be equal in that for the most part European feminism consists of mostly upper or middle class well educated women as opposed to the lower class women around the world. He makes a good point in that for years women have been attempting to become equal to men in many senses instead of attempting bring to light the difference and strengths of women. “…they rarely contend that women could overthrow the existing regime when the government fails to be concerned about women’s rights.” Wu often brings focus to feminists fault lies in that they disregard the political and social change that could occur if they brought to light that women are different from men, instead of trying to equalize with men. One of the faults which Wu points out is in the late nineteenth century women of many European countries gave themselves the title “mothers of the nation-state.” Though this title brought awareness to women as powerful, it also re-enforced the traditional roles of women as mothers.
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(no subject) [Jun. 16th, 2005|11:55 am]
[mood |bitchybitchy]

So today I went to gym..first time I've been in a few days, mostly b/c I dont want to deal with some people but also because its the last week of school, big deal if I miss some gym class. I went under the presumption that I had my final presentation with a former friend..turns out it wasn't today...it was set for tommorow, not only that but she went and changed the entire presentation, did not tell me THEN made it look like I was the one who fucked up here...Well NO! If your going to change the project fucking tell me!~ She gave the excuse she was "too busy"..bullshit! Im sorry, but if you have someone on msn, how long does it really take to msg me or email me a quick "we need to talk about the presentation"? Seriously people...I figured by this stage in the game we would be passed these juvinille games..But apperentlly not.
So thats all well and good...Ive decided against doing the project,my mark is high enough I'll get the credit regardless, so whatever, I'll take the fall...There isn't a force on this earth that will get me to go back to that gym class or talk to that girl ever again.
Why must people Backstab constantly?? What does it ackomplish...by bringing another down does it really make you feel that much better? There are VERY few people I can say are honestly just horrible human being...this girl is one of them...
Whatever Im out now
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Random Update [Jun. 1st, 2005|11:24 pm]
[mood |calmcalm]
[music |Hover - TrustComapny]

Ok..so, this is just cus i NEVER update this journal.
Anyways so updates with myself...Well the coolest thing..my play piercing is set for the 12th!! For those of you who do not know what a play piercing is :

play piercing
piercing for the sake of piercing
Play piercing is piercing of the body, usually with hypodermic needles, purely for the sensation. No jewelry is inserted, nor is a permanent physical effect of any kind desired.

Yes..There will be many pictures. the chosen design is 2 stars, one @ the top of my back, one @ the bottom and a spiral-like design connecting them. My piercer Tim is doing it, he's just as excited about it because its his first tim preforming a play piercing (its my first play piercing). Overall there will be something like 100 needles and probably about 3 hours for the process...oh i cant wait ^_^.

Other then that, school is almost out...Cant fucking wait, im so bogged down with homework *ugh*. But then Cathy comes home for the summer and I move into Hannah's...and Sounds of the Underground <3...

Yupp...thats my life...
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(no subject) [May. 4th, 2005|03:28 pm]
[mood |anxiousanxious]
[music |my last serenade - KSE]

I can't handle this shit anymore...Why has everything gone to shit?? I wish that I could be one of those girls who just does her school work and focusses on that and maybe plays a few sports. That seems like such a simple life...you do what you have to...But no, I have to go and make things shit...Ugh, I just hope I get through these next few months ok..*sigh*
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(no subject) [Apr. 9th, 2005|12:49 am]
[mood |happyhappy]
[music |Dream On- Aerosmith]

So today was probably one of the best days in the past while...so simple, but so good ^_^. It really started getting well after school when hannah. Jeff and Kell's picked me up..we went to Tim's were I talked to him about the play piercings and im gunna get them done :D, he's gunna pick up a box of surgical needles soon, then im gunna go in, plan it all out..oh man i cant wait. The great part is he's excited to do it as well, it will be an amazing experience.

So from there, we went to Waterloo & picked up Dave..preceeded to go to Chicken wings with some friends who i havn't seen for ever...sadly, i was beaten out in the wing eaten contest by ONE chicken wing *sigh*...next time! Saw SinCity again afterwards (Han & Dave sat thru it handcuffed together, oh wicked funny)..From there we just chilled, went for coffee...watched Mitch Hedburg at my house <3...

Over all, it was a pretty average day...but it was just so much fun...It kind of reminded me of last summer, but in alot of ways it was better...i lvoed it :D

Anyways, im out to bed

<3 <3
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